Reeling with Gratitude
I confess: I’ve spent a lifetime playing it “safe.” Unless I could spy a clear-cut path to assured “success,” I shied away from “risky” opportunities. In regards to my writing, I surmised, better to be unread than to have my creativity slaughtered by critics!
Then, I met my husband and tried to wrap my mind around his life-story:
A high school oops given up for adoption…a ward of the state for seven months…adopted by a couple who would divorce by his seventh birthday…raised solely by his adoptive father who turned to the bottle to ease his solitude…beaten routinely…escaping to join the Air Force…only to return home and helplessly watch his only parent succumb to cancer…orphaned at twenty-three…after which he would track down biological parents who ultimately wanted nothing to do with him…
First off, I could not fathom how a man forced to grow up with zero maternal love was capable of loving me so completely. Furthermore, how did a person raised under a banner of rejection and abuse achieve such sky-high dreams? I, a child blessed with a “Beaver Cleaver-type upbringing,” had known no such hardship. How could I begin to understand the anguish of not having a soul on this planet to call family?
I’m not qualified, I silently panicked! What could I offer — besides unwavering love?
I did the only other thing I felt capable of — I started writing a fictionalized version of his experience. What started out as an education about the lingering wounds of adoption, evolved into an endeavor that superseded fear. One I will never give up on until it is worthy of ALL who have walked — for whatever reason — in abandonment’s painful shoes.
Rehashing a manuscript, again and again, can leave one numb. Starting this blog inspired me to keep my writing fresh. Where I struggled in my fictional world, here I found salvation. But NEVER in my wildest dreams did I expect to find such an incredibly supportive community…
Reeling with gratitude, I can only bow my head and say — THANK YOU!
Special Thanks to:
Teacher as Transformer who nominated me for the Very Inspiring and Sunshine Blogger Awards. He is truly the teacher we all wished we had in our younger days. I am elated to have discovered him — better late than never!
Global Light Minds who nominated me for Blog of the Year. Wendy’s daily snippets are my number one inspirational indulgence. Follow her, you won’t be disappointed!
I wish to nominate the following blogs:
Eric M Vogt’s Blog – His intriguing background captured me from the git-go, but his amazing writing will change your world for the better…
Untetherednunbroken — Beautiful, eloquent, soul-stirring and so very real…
The Silent Muse — An incredibly prolific writer. My finger hurts from hitting the LIKE button so often…
Aarthi – I have no idea how she writes so consistently beautiful every single day…
MindRetrofit7 – Add another star already, Angel!
Global Light Minds – Add another star, Wendy!
Withering Words of Mind – Kent is new on the scene but certainly not new to the written word, what a magical find…
For all those I missed in this talented pool…or haven’t had the privilege of discovering yet, I can’t wait to read your delightful words!! XO